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I cannot deny that I am feeling a bit anxious this morning. My unemployment was short-lived to only cover the summer months. I thank the Lord that I am economical and I have spent my money wisely, especially since I do not know what lies ahead.
That wise decision helped me to pay the rent in September and October, but it is two weeks until November, and here I am... still without a job... counting my pennies to see how much money I have left to work with and how long it will last. I am right back where I was in January...
I keep trying to be as economical as I can with my phone and electricity. All of the lightbulbs in my apartment have been changed to 40 watt, except for the one in the kitchen, because I cannot reach it.
The weather in the Valley continues to be so hot and the heat makes it difficult to sleep at night. I keep praying for cooler days but every day is just another hot day. In the meantime, I continue to wear as little as possible when I am in my apartment in order to keep my body temperature as cool as I can. I take a quick one or two minute cold shower during the hottest part of the day and another one before I go to bed so that I can sleep at night.
My grocery list continues to be as modest as possible. I continue to make tortillas to stretch my grocery dollar. Once in awhile, I treat myself to a $1 cheeseburger, but my body wants to eat things that are outside my norm.
As for gasoline, the prices appear to be going down at the pump, but I continue to limit the places where I have to go, and if it is not absolutely necessary for me to be there, I don't go.
The biggest chunk that comes out of my pocket is the rent... I continue to pay by the month instead of signing a lease, which hurts because it is more expensive, but I don't want to be caught not being able to fulfill my lease. After all, there is no income coming into my life, not even the pennies I use to find on the street... Lord, I don't even want to think about having to put my things into storage or the possibility of having to go into a shelter. Even if I go to a shelter, they only give you 30 days...
The last time I went through this, I asked Mother if I could come to stay with her until I could get back on my feet. She said no, and my daughter and I were homeless for two years... If she should say yes now, her home is full of mold, there are problems with plumbing and electricity, and there is no room for me, because she lives in a very little house that is over-crowded with her things, because she has no closets.
It is amazing the things that we can accumulate in ten years! I continue to sort through boxes, trying to see what I can part with so that I won't have as much stuff to transfer to wherever the Lord leads me... be it to a new environment, a new job, or to put it into storage until I can find a job.
Parting with some of my things is difficult, but I keep reminding myself that I must be generous with the things that I choose to give away. They have served me well these past ten years, but putting them into someone else's hands will help to brighten someone else's life... and it will help to pave the way for new opportunities in my own life.
These days I find myself having to fight against feeling so discouraged. I have so much to offer, Lord. Why do I keep on being over-looked? Finding a job has taken me so much longer than I expected. This year is almost over, and I am still without a job. Still, I try to hold on to the thought that God is never late.
The moon is 98% full. I am looking forward to taking a moonlit walk with God this evening.
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'Tis Halloween night and all through the Mansion
many creatures were stirring in their own grisly fashion.
Uncle Fester was hung in the closet upstairs
While Grandmama snoozed in her favorite chair.
Wednesday curled up dreaming Halloween dreams
too sleepy to hear Pugsley's bone-chilling screams.
Lurch settled in for his Halloween nap
while Thing dressed for bed in his P.J.'s and cap.
On goblins, on demons, on creatures of sin.
On Comet, on Cupid, on Donner and Blitzen ...
It's almost that time for treating and tricking.
For haunting and scaring and screaming and kicking.
And the night air was filled with horror and gloom
as wolves outside howled at the moon.
It's the one time of year when everything's right.
Happy Halloween to you, and to all a good fright.
~author unknown
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OK... so I messed up a little in making this tag...
It's on a white background! LOL
I was having computer problems when I made it
and I lost it before I could make one with a black background
but at least this one was saved.
LOL @ it happens!
Trying to sort through boxes has been a challenge.
I had been sleeping on the floor for a few nights
because I didn't want to interrupt the work I started.
I was able to move the bed yesterday, though,
and last night was the first night
that I slept in my bed with my head in the South.
I don't know how good that is for prosperity,
but according to Feng Shui,
it is good for people who have bad health,
so it is worth a try.
It felt kind of strange to sleep this way.
It took me awhile to fall asleep,
but after I woke up this morning
and dressed the bed,
I think I am going to like it...
I started the day in prayer
and made myself a good breakfast,
however humble!
LOL @ my imitation grapefruit juice
(Crystal Lite grapefruit)...
all of the flavor and none of the nutrition!
But it is soooooo good
and cheaper than buying real juice
so I trick my mind to think that I have money. LOL
I started out to make my "to do" list
and God laughed at me again...
The phone didn't ring yesterday,
but I thought I would check it anyway...
I have another interview on Friday
except that I will not have to get dressed for it,
because it will be by telephone.
Now that is awesome!
That means that I will have to go
to the employment center today,
because there are some things
that I have to fax to them before the interview.
OMG @ I have to keep checking what day it is!
Thank you, Lord, for changing my plans. LOL
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October gave a party;
The leaves by hundreds came~
The Chestnuts, Oaks, and Maples,
And leaves of every name.
The Sunshine spread a carpet,
And everything was grand,
Miss Weather led the dancing,
Professor Wind the band.
~George Cooper, "October's Party"
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This tag is one of my favorites. If you look closely, the tree is a man and a woman loving each other.
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I wish Autumn would visit all over the world. The pretty changing colors of the leaves make it look as if every leaf is a flower. Unfortunately, the Autumn I know only exists in picture books and now in my tags. (smile)
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When I was a little girl, I was immediately drawn to the illustrations of Eloise Wilkin in the Little Golden Books. For me, one of those books was worth more than a toy. In my little world, there was no Autumn, but her illustrations opened my eyes to a whole new world that I thought was no more than imagination. Imagine my surprise the first time I came across a sandpiper or a tree full of changing colored leaves! The pictures she drew were not imagination at all! They were real! I love nature. It is one of God's greatest gifts.
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