Monday, December 1, 2008

Look Deep Within

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I usually start out my day in prayer, but this morning, I had to take my mind off Mother by praying all the way to work! It was hard to keep from crying, but I am not eligible to take time off for that! Good grief! I am so mad at myself for allowing her to make me feel bad!
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I think God heard my prayer, because when I got to work, I had plenty of work to keep myself busy. First of all, I tried to file the paperwork that I did the previous week. I hope I put everything in the right places! I just put like forms together just like playing matching in kindergarten. LOL...
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When I got back from filing, I had received three packets from three of the kids sponsors, so I had to go through the packets to ensure everything was there. Most of the time, there is something missing, but I don't have a phone at work and the girls were busy using their phones all day, so I had to wait until after work to make my phone calls...
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Most of my kids are in one group, except for the one I saw today. Turns out he has a very bad cold, so I notified the infirmery & an appointment was made for him to see the doctor tomorrow... Tomorrow, I have staffing in the morning, and I have to eight kids to see in the afternoon, so I have to see what I can do to speed their cases along and report back to them... That means that tomorrow will be another busy day... Yay!
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At lunch time, the woman I started this job with came over to my office to eat lunch with me. She has the same background experience as I do except that she has a Master's in Social Work and she is licensed. She is not my supervisor, but she is an administrative supervisor.
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I am angry at myself for not being able to do the kind of work I used to do because I don't have a license. That means less money... Looking through the kids packets, I have to evaluate income to ensure the sponsors can care for the kids financially. In this process, I have discovered that people who pack chickens with no degree and no English are making more money than I do... even waitresses make more money than I do, $1,000 in tips alone! OMGGG...
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Anywho... the woman said that she missed me a lot and that she felt that we had bonded when we had training together... We had a good talk, sharing thoughts, etc... She says she likes me a lot because I make her laugh. I thought that was odd, because I thought I was serious at training. LOL... BUT... One thing that I never expected to hear her say is that she will always back me up if I need her to. Wow! So happy to have a good friend in high places! LOL
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14 comments:

Rose said...

You are beating yourself up again. Be kinder to yourself...think positive Sweetie.......things will get better.

Hugs,Rose

LYN said...

you can do this...

Chrissie said...

Glad you have a friend there that always helps ease things.
Hope you have a great day.
Take care, Chrissie

Lynne said...

You can and are doing it! Glad you were reacquainted with a new friend!

God Bless!

Myra said...

Still be wary, even if she says she is your friend, until the time when she does back you up. I have a really hard time trusting people at work until we've proven to each other that we can be trusted. I don't trust anyone at work, and stay private about my home life...just keeps me from being vulnerable! You know what you're doing with your work, so you'll do a great job! Our mom's get to us, I think its their job!

MISSY said...

I'm glad that work is going so well for you and that you're keeping busy.

I know you're upset with your mom and I know you're hurting. It's to be expected. I hope you feel better. *M*

Mike said...

It's pretty sad that certain jobs just pay more than they should. Although would you really want to pluck chickens?

It's Just Me ~ Katie! said...

I know that when I waitressed I made some really good money but the work was so tiring. I have faith in you that you will do fine and soar above the others. Be good to yourself and smile. Take care,
Katie

Emmi said...

stop beating yourself up ... you can do this.

Robin said...

I'm glad you've found a friend there:) Or, so it seems.

Not clear about your crying and wanting time off of work but you're not eligible for that reason -- what reason, the crying, or is something else going on? (I will try to read further back in your posts but internet's flacky.) May your prayers be answered, Win.

I DO hope your paycheck / rent due situation is clearing up.

Missie said...

You are one of the toughest women I know. You can do this!

ELLIE said...

It is good to have a friendly person at work - at least someone to eat with and pass some friendly conversation with - your job sounds busy but that is okay - keeps your mind busy and having a job these days is truly a blessing!!!
Stay positive girlfriend!!
-Ellie

ELLIE said...

P.S.
email me your home address and I will email you mine to exchange cards!!

Joyce said...

Sometimes it's not what you know but who you know in certain situations. I'm sorry to hear you mother is at it again. Keep that chin up GF.
Hugs, Joyce