Every day on the way to work, I recite the 23rd Psalm, the Lord's Prayer, the Hail Mary, the Glory Be, the Prayer to my Guardian Angel, and then, I adlib a short prayer to ask God to be with me throughout the day, to thank Him for the Blessings in my life, and to Bless and Protect the people I love... but one day last week, I just didn't have it in me to say my prayers...
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LIFE with the people I work with has been such a horrible series of events... I don't fit in... I do my work, but I do not say a word unless if I am asked something about my cases. I am not part of the click... It's as bad as my first marriage: see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil, have no fun. Just be a "yes" person, just be passive, just do what they tell you. Don't bother to have ideas. Don't bother to have opinions. Don't bother to have a personality! LOL...
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Everyday that I am there, I keep telling myself that I am not there to be friends with the She-Devils... I am there for the people I serve... If I go to another job, it will just be geography, because jealousy always follows me wherever I go... Being single is hard, because I cannot put my head on anybody's shoulder when I feel down... I just have to bite my tongue and keep on going...
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But the morning after the day that I couldn't pray, I opened the car door to get into my car... and there it was... There was a little white feather on the floor in the back of the driver's seat. How did it get there? It wasn't as if the wind had blown it in... Nobody gets into my car but me... I have not been around feathers ever since Tidbit passed away...
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... I smiled to myself, knowing that my Guardian Angel left a little feather behind... just a tiny reminder that He is always there to Guide me, to Protect me, to Comfort me and to LOVE me, even if there are no humans in my life to hug me...
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5 comments:
Sounds like your Angel knew you needed a mental hug and the feather brought you peace. You're going to triumph thru the work challenges. God has a plan for your life...just keep praying and all things will turn around for good. Blessings to you!
What a blessing! More so, that you recognized it. Be aware always and you'll see the little miracles that take place all around you.
how beautiful your feather....
she-devils. yeah well, you sound like me. never been, never will be, in the clique. that's just not me.
Yes, He is. And know that your friends do support you and pray for you, even if we're not there for you to lay your head upon our shoulders type thing. I know sometimes that real life in person touch is important, too. So keep that feather next to you if that helps. Stay writing on here when you can. Stay focused on the good, and your clients. This will get better, it will, it just has to.
My Dear Win, It is so awful to feel so alone..It must be so hard for you when you had such high hopes for this job to be perfect for you..indeed I expect the "job" is a perfect one for such a caring person as yourself. If only you can find a way round the "silences" I don't really know what advice to give...indeed I really can't give any at all. However I do know without a doubt that we have a Great Lord who is always there for us it is just that sometimes we find it hard to find him....the little feather is a sure reminder for you. His shoulder is always there.
Much Love Sybil xx
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