Tuesday, May 11, 2010

always KISS me goodnight:::

!AlwaysKissMe

I am feeling a little blue today, knowing that 2010 is almost heading into summer... I am blue, because although I bring myself to the point of exhaustion, spinning my wheels with the busy-ness of everyday life, my progress continues to stand still and I continue to lose money working at a job that pays only half what I used to make... I do not regret leaving my previous job, but I do wish that the efforts I make in my current job would bring at least a little bit of reward...

I am grateful that I have a job, even if it is a temporary job, but my mind and my body have become so exhausted that not even sleep brings renewal or relief... and what's worse is that the color of my eyes has gone from brown to red... Good grief @ who was the nut who invented money and did he hoard it all for himself?!

As a single person, my struggles are usually about money, because single people have no other choice but to work in order to survive... If you can't make the money, you learn to do without... but my biggest struggle is that I want to do more than just exist!

Sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if there had been an encouraging person in my life to always kiss me goodnight... Unloved children with no support learn to comfort themselves with their own words and with their own arms... and so, I put my arms around myself once more, and tell myself that everything will work out for the best...

11 comments:

Senorita said...

Win, you are a brave, strong women. You have it so hard, but here you are taking care of yourself and making it happen no matter what.

My prayers are with you, and I am giving you a big hug, too. You are not alone.

LYN said...

YOU ARE ALWAYS AN INSPIRATION TO ME..I AM GOING ON A JOB INTERVIEW TODAY BTW..;-)

Jimmy's Journal said...

And that it shall my love! Personality and a warm heart are always great fodder for fostering romance. Follow your hunches....

Jimmy

Bobby said...

Thank you so much for sharing your feelings. You sound like you have a grasp of what you need to do. I hope you get some lead-way and can start to do more than just exist. Never give up on the future. Their is opportunity still out there and more importantly there is love.

Kathy said...

Hey Win,
It is me Kat. I haven't been around in ages. Glad to see that you are still around and blogging. I don't blog anymore because I have had the most hellish few years. A lot of stuff has happended in the last few months with me and my family and not sure which direction my life is going to take. Anyway, have a great weekend.

ADB said...

There are pros and cons to having a partner, and to being solitary, Win. If Mr Special comes along, you'll know. But go looking, and you may not find him at all - be happy!

ADB said...

Win, hope you're alright with hurricane Alex passing over your area - beware of the rain and any flooding.

Sybil said...

Win it's ages sinse you wrote are you ok. I am concerned.
love Sybil x

Shelly said...

Hi Win. Miss you. : ) xoxo

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