Prayers Needed Please

OK... Well, my last entry was a THOUGHT!... OMG @ why is LIFE always such a hard struggle for me? What can I do to make my life easier?! GRRR...

My primary problems are at work. It is hard to work with people who don't like you, especially because if they don't like you, they try their best to get you FIRED. Yes, my "New Boss from Hell who Can't Spell" is using her new found power to find anything and everything she can to get me fired. She wrote me up for being behind in my work while I was out three days sick, so I went in to work yesterday (Saturday)from 10:30 a.m. to 10:30 p.m., and I didn't finish what she wants me to present to her boss, so I am having to return to work today (Sunday). Mind you that I live an hour away from work, so that takes an extra two hours away from my day. This means that I will not get a day off to rest this week. I work on salary which means the sick days were taken away from me, but the time I have been at work this weekend to make up the work is not credited, because I do not get paid by the hour... Plus, I missed a training and will have to study it by myself to get quizzed next week. Paperwork SUX. Now, I have to give her my work everyday for two months.

Grr... Also, the She-Devils at work collaborated with each other to get red shirts. Mine is the only one that is black. I love it because I think it looks more professional than theirs, but it just goes to prove that I am not part of their clique.

I hate working with women. This is probably part of retaliation for my writing up my previous boss who is now a trainer. I need to keep more notes on My Boss from Hell Who Can't Spell.




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Redheads Are Cool

The traffic lights that take the longest to change are the ones that are closest to my apartment. What was different about today’s lights was that when I got to the light, I kept telling it to change… change… change… When are you going to change?!

Waiting for a light to change may seem like a lifetime, but it was very clear that it is the question that I should be asking myself! Autumn is all about change. In the Valley, we have tropical weather all year 'round, so we don't get to see all the pretty changing seasons... If we did, would we change with the season? Staying the same is safe, but staying the same is standing still, and standing still is not going forward, and not going forward means you are only existing, and if you are only existing, that means you are not living...

The first change I have made this season is to go red. I just got tired of the blonde, so I decided to go back to my natural haircolor. It took a lot of courage to change my hair color, but I have noticed that it has turned some heads and it will give my hair a rest to look healthier again. Plan 2 is to pick up after myself so that I don't end up spending a lifetime cleaning house. Plan 3 is to develop a better way to organize my work so I can get more things done in less time. Plan 4 is to change my eating habits. Plan 5 is to put myself on my own agenda! These are all short-term goals that I can start right now, changes that I should already be doing but keep putting on "ignore," because there always seems to be other things that are "more important" to fill my days.

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My Friday Dish

Hello, Everybody! Deeply apologetic for being AWOL for so long... Life has been extremely hard lately, but there has been a bit of good news...

Last Friday, I went to visit my youngest daughter in San Antonio, Texas. She is learning Fashion Design... I know! One of the dreams I never fulfilled for myself, because life has forced me to survive instead! LOL... The goal was to complete the outfits, because she had two of her designs featured in a Fashion Show... So I went for support, but I also went to help her to complete the finishing touches. She worked so hard, staying up late every night until everything was completed. On Saturday morning, she was still working on the accessories, so I finished the sequined headband for her.

The first design was a fitted pinstripe jacket with a white collar, an open square back, and a tuxedo red, black, and white tail. The model wore it with a satin white mini skirt, and a white fedora hat with a veil and peacock feather. The second design was a white top with a pinstripe corset worn with white satin pants with pearls suspenders and a black and white sequined headband with a slanted veil and peacock feathers. Her second design was the only design in the entire show that the people stood up to clap. I don't mean to sound as if I am bragging, but her work was the only part of the show that looked really original and that included accessories. The rest of the designs looked like stuff you could easily find in a store or on the street.

Luciano is nine pounds now. He is on a heart monitor and still has seizures. He is looks like his big brother but he has green eyes. It's like going back in time! =.)

Monday was the funeral. My girls' father was cremated. I am still in shock that he is dead. I could write some really ugly things here because he was not a good man, but out of respect for my girls, I won't. My oldest daughter took it very hard, not because of their relationship but because he was her father. He was never part of my younger daughter's life, but like me, she is still in shock that her father is dead, so she went to support her sister. I am surprised to discover that when someone dies, it can still be shocking even if you never had a good relationship with them.

Work has been an infierno with the people I work with. What does it take for people to stop telling you stuff that makes you feel uncomfortable? What does it take for them to accept you? I work with two women with very strong personalities who are very bossy, who have probably always had their way in life, and who have never suffered a day in their lives. You know the type. OMG @ how can they be on PMS every single day of their life?!!!!!!! How do you keep them from breaking your spirit? All of the new boys that have come to the shelter have been placed in my caseload. Good grief at I am so overwhelmed and drowning in paperwork, and the tacky attitude of my new boss is not helping. I have been there almost a year, but I do not feel stable in my job, because if they don't like you, they can easily get rid of you.

It's no wonder that I find my bliss in chocolate. LOL

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